U.K. PARURESIS TRUST: Re: feelings of inadequacy

well i've been asked to add further comment, closing comment to this thread by Andrew and so i'm happy to do so.

life at the moment is pretty much as before, i have all the same concerns and neuroses. i still have discomfort zones in the toilet however i've been practicing a lot in the urinal and going through gradual desensitisation. i treat most trips to the urinal as an opportunity to challenge the situations where i'm typically uncomfortable. but let's be honest, it's something i'm aware i'm always going to have however through application the impact on my life can be greatly reduced.

i still have times where i just can't face the effort of using the urinal next to others however in most part it's what you're willing to make of it. nothing in this life worth having is free. well, some are thin and beautiful and some can piss in public, but what i mean is the things that you want and don't naturally have need to be worked for. the alternative is you go through this life in a limited capacity and after 70 years you think what a waste taking all those concerns with me. it sounds good doesn't it, and i try to keep telling myself this is true because if it isn't we're really in trouble.

i'm very sorry to read the previous post about the lack of sexual development. it's true my situation doesn't hold a candle to his, but we're all suffering our own kinds of madness. if in fact it's physical then it's another kind of peace of mind you'd need to find, a more elusive one and i hope truly that he finds it.

i'm doing better, this site has been an inspiration. it's a daily effort to keep on top of these mind games.