Hi,
It's been great to find the UKPT, the resources have been really helpful for me, especially the CBT stuff.
I've had Paruresis for as long as I can remember, definitely 30+ years and it has sneakily affected my whole life. I've been working on my GE for some time now with definite progress, but I'm a bit stuck & confused now. I'm at the stage where I'm trying to pee in a urinal with someone in the next one. I'm getting a stream started, but lose it before I feel properly empty and of course as soon as the person leaves I have a nice extra pee!
I know I'm really fortunate to even be at this stage, but I'm a bit stuck and I've had some interesting thoughts. So when I first started my journey to improve my Paruresis the biggest thing for me was that it's all about being anxious about NOT peeing, rather than peeing - it made perfect sense. Now I'm able to start a stream next to someone, I think I'm having anxiety about the actual peeing - it seems things have swapped around. Does this makes sense or am I just over thinking stuff?
Any thoughts appreciated.
Julian
5 years 9 months ago