Posted by Karl on 13/4/2017, 11:41 am
My 6 week update is 79 successes, no misfires, and 2 latent. |
The reason i write this post today however, is not to share my success of urinating but rather to share my success of the 2 latent one's.
On 30th April 2017, my G.P gave me a urine sample bottle and asked me to leave it asap. My level of urgency was very low and i considered going for a cuppa to build up the urgency level. Instead, i opted to walk around some shops very slowly to let my level build itself up naturally and when it did i used a private cubicle and filled the bottle.
Instead of voiding all the remaining urine into the toilet i kept it in for urinal practice later on. Due to my low level of urgency, i later forgot this as i went uptown and got some shopping and it was only as i passed the Gents that i remembered. I stopped outside and assessed my urgency level to decide if it was worth going in or not. I realised it was best to wait 'til i got home as my level was too low, however, i decided to give it a go anyways and went into the Gents.
I stood alone at the urinal and could feel my urine was very slowly passing along the bladder. I confirmed with myself the urgency was too low but stayed there anyways. One man then stood 2 urinals along and another then behind as the layout is an r shape and i was in the left corner. It was so long since i'd had a misfire or a latent visit that i wasn't used to this situation anymore so i went into workshop mode.
I became a fighter pilot with my radar focused on the job, i only paid attention to myself, i believed, decided, fully committed to waiting it out, i didn't panic, i stayed comfortable, i persisted and was determined to succeed in my own time, i didn't freeze, i remembered that any latency is normal, i didn't feel under threat, i dealt with the environment, i remembered the past success of latency visits and anticipated i would succeed, i didn't think of my latency as a problem, i remembered it doesn't matter if i go or how long it was going to take me to go, and it didn't bother me that these 2 men could hear i wasn't urinating.
I finally had success without even noticing that these men had both left and when i washed my hands a man i hadn't even heard come into the Gents walked out of a cubicle with the toilet seat up so meant he had used it as a urinal with big privacy screens and that was ok.
The second latent trip was on the 5th May 2017 ( this is where a diary comes in handy!) and i once again had a low level of urgency only this time i had to stand next to someone as i don't personally use private cubicle's as safety behaviours. As i stood next to someone this time i remembered hearing other men take deep breath's on previous visits whilst they were being latent. I did the same so the man next to me would know i was trying hard to urinate and then he did exactly the same! In fact, by the sounds of it i think he left without urinating and that was ok. I didn't manage to go until about 20 seconds after he left and by that time another man had come in and stood 2 urinals down so i wasn't alone and i was urinating :-) I hadn't failed! :-)
Latency in a non-a.p is normal, situational, and an inconvenience NOT a problem and has become so for myself... so can be for you too :-)